If its the lords way.

For the past few weeks i have been so stressed out. Wondering how i would serve a mission. What would i do with school? How would i pay for it? Is it truly right? I seriously wanted all these things to work out and just feel it was right but it didn't. Today in mission prep i didn't feel comfort of "yes this is what you need to do" so i called my brother and after readying my patriarchal blessing i just feel like now is not the time for me to go. Maybe i will go in the future but as of right now i feel like it's not the right time for a mission. I wish i this wasn't the answer i got but i now feel at peace with myself. I know that even though i am not on my mission now doesn't mean i can't serve the Lord.

I am a Mormon. I know it! I live it! I love it!

We decided to go down to Utah for conference and it was seriously life changing.This conference our prophet announced that the age for young men and young women to serve a mission in the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints had been thought over and changed. They changed the age from 21 to 19!!! crazy drop! My heart was filled with so much joy knowing that this indeed was going to effect me. The whole day i was sooo happy! My roommate Meredith also was effected by this change. All day we were talking about serving we probably annoyed everyone and their brother. We would say things like "Shaunty! this is probably the last cold-play song will ever hear! Cause were going on a mission!" "Meredith We wont be able to wear this skirt anymore when were on a mission" (we share clothes almost everyday)I think that day was like the best day of my life the day i leave will probably replace that. hehe!!! My families covertion. My mom was converted to the church after she married my father she took my brothers to church for a while but became inactive. At the age of 8 my brother Bryan (13 then)really wanted to go to church. He remembered going to the LDS church and really wanted to go back. We did and he immediately knew he wanted to be a member; we set a date for him but my mom got really sick and we cancelled his baptism date. A while went by again but my brother stayed persistent about the church; all three of us kids were of age so we all took lessons (again) together and decided we would all like to be baptized. So we set a date and Bryan, Stephen, and I were all baptized together. I can remember that day and being so excited to receive the holy ghost. Our good family friend referred to "him" as a Jiminy Cricket and how "he" would always be there to help us make good choices. I was kinda disappointed that it wasn't a real cricket but i got over it. But since that day i have been blessed with so much in my life and my little cricket has helped me steer to the lord. I am so much happier with the lord on my side and i know that this church is true. I know that Joseph Smith was given the power by god to restore the gospel that we have here on earth today.The prophet Thomas S. Monson is the prophet of god and i know what he tells us is indeed from the lord. I want to share this with those who don't know about the church and those who have questions. I am so grateful for this opportunity and i cant wait to do my part.

Last week of my 7 week break

Re cap on the whole being home thing. I loved it!!! I think being away from home and coming back is like the best thing ever. You miss your family more and they miss you more so your just feel love. its pretty great. Well i was way busy being home, working and babysitting all the time which was great. i was able to save up a lot this trip (for school) I stayed with a family friend because she had an extra bed room. If you don't remember, my parents moves to a one bedroom apartment; there couch is a love seat so i slept on the floor. But i went to visit them almost everyday in between work and stuff. At the end of the & week break my roommate came to California!! It was so good to see her again,I seriously love her shes awesome! Well after picking her up from the airport we headed to Monterey. We went to Asilomar, lovers point, and fisherman wharf (and ate clam chowder mmm) We went to our hotel and woke up ready to explore Big Sur and Carmel. Later the second day we did a whale watching tour which was seriously an awesome experience. After the tour we headed to Santa Cruz and walked along the boardwalk. Unfortunately the boardwalk was closed and the waves were horrible so we couldn't go surfing (such a bummer) we then headed to Palo Alto to stay with a really good friend of mine. The next morning we woke up bright and early and met my parents in Point reyes, we set up our camp site and then headed to site see around ( like the light house!) after an awesome day with the P's (aka parents) we went to bed and woke up early AGAIN to head to SANFRANCISCO! We spent all day there it was great! My parents stayed another day camping and me and Heather headed back to my parents. i have to say it was the best week ever.

Dillons Beach

Oh man have i missed the beach. The cool breeze, the sand. Although i hate sand in my pants and being freezing cold. I love just being at the beach Especially with a group of friends. Thanks to my friend Ryan we took a trip to Dillon Beach. We had a blast! we went skim boarding and boogie boarding dug a huge hole in the sand. It was so much fun i think the funniest part was making sandwiches, and using a meat package to spread mayonnaise. The sandwiches took 3x longer to make and tasted 3x sandier then regular. (SANDwich) Another fun part of the day was cow chasing. We had it in out minds that we could total catch up to one and tip it. Turns our cows, run really fast. It also turns out that fences mean private property (A couple riding around made sure we knew it)

Slacking

I'm slacking on the whole blog thing, but i'm home! And i absolutely love it here <3 I can remember being in high school and always wanting to get the heck out of Sacramento but i don' really know why. I love being surrounded by family and old friends.

ONE WEEK!!

In one week from right now i will be boarding a plan to Sacramento! I cant wait to be home! I LOVE it here but man do i miss home. I miss my funny mom and my crazy poops ( what i call my dad) I'm blessed to have such wonderful parents that can put up with my weirdness ;D Cant wait to see you guys!

I hate days like these. I am in such a yucky mood. I have a wonderful life yet i keep focusing on all the negatives today. One thing that cheers me up a bit is that i will be visiting home. In 12 days i will be be in under the hot sun of Sacramento. I honestly cant wait. I cant wait to melt from heat, or kiss my mom , hug my dad, take my dog to pee, swim in a pool, go back to work or do no school work. These 7 weeks will be amazing i know it. This is what keeps me going. Every time i am discouraged or sad or even angry i say in my head "Its okay... Only (FILL IN BLANK) days left. These words fill my mind with peace and happiness. I guess i should keep repeating this over and over again, other wise i wont get through the day.