So when this is over don't blow your composure.

My stake president and I talked about having my papers in by the 13th but I never heard a word from him. I found out there was a death in his family and began feeling selfish for being a little upset. But I couldn't help it! I was still SOOO eager to know if they had gone in. I waited a few days and then gave in to my temptation and sent and email asking if things were sent in as planned. Four days went by of me constantly checking my email (seriously I checked so much that my email became a favorite page on Firefox)OBSESSIVE MUCH? But tonight I got an email and man it was discouraging and vague it read "Your application should be submitted this week. Thanks!" All that came to mind was WHAT THE HECK!!! First I was sad because the hope of my papers already being in was crushed and there wasn't a date, when were they going to be submitted? What day this week? I pushed it out of my mind. If you don't think about it then it doesn't exist right? ya SO WRONG! It was weighing on me and I really was just feeling so tired of waiting. After a forced workout my phone rang (seriously it was like clock work) I didn't recognize the number but it was 916 (Sacramento) so I answered. On the other end of the phone was my stake president! We talked for a bit about plans and maybe waiting even longer (NOOO!!) But at the end of our conversation he said that if it was okay with me that he would send them in tonight, then and there. His words truly brought me relief and joy. I no longer have to wait. I feel like the hardest challenge I had through this process is being patient, and boy did I fail at passing that test. I am so happy though, this decision is really the best decision I have made in my life. I can feel it in my bones, I can feel the confirmation of the spirit telling me that this is so. I cannot wait to share the gospel and all the joy and blessings that it brings me. *sigh* Today has been good but tonight has been the best.